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February 02, 2006

I guess it's all just fodder for that book Lauren says I should write...

First of all, I just have to share that this is my 100th post since switching over to Movable Type. That's probably completely insignificant, since I've been keeping an online journal for over 10 years now, but I don't care. It's fun to acknowledge.

Moving on.

The end of this week marks the end of J Term at Oberlin, and I'm less than thrilled about it. Although this month hasn't been perfect -- we can't go to bed until about 3 am unless we want to be awoken many many times -- it's been an AMAZING break from the normal anxiety-inducing noisy crap that comes with living in this building. Tomorrow morning we leave for San Diego, and although I'm thrilled that we won't be back until midnight on Sunday, thus managing to completely miss any sort of Superbowl craze, I'm dreading our return. When we get back, the students will all be back. Spring semester will likely be even louder than fall, as the freshmen don't require that same settling-in period and cabin fever sets in and makes everyone crazy.

I've really tried hard to give this living situation a shot and to not immediately write off the people who are affecting my mental health, but somehow, I can't help but fear the upcoming months. January has felt like an entire semester, and the thought that we have to live here for ANOTHER semester, for four more months, is beyond overwhelming.

I'm going to try to not create any self-fulfilling prophecies, and to focus my energy on enjoying my Hebrew classes, which start back up on Tuesday, and hope that Lauren can find a job somewhere where, even if the living situation is as bad, I have other outlets in my life that will give me a break from the insanity.

This didn't quite turn out to be the positive entry I had hoped for. Oops.

Posted to Mental Health & Oberlin at February 2, 2006 11:13 AM

Comments

I found a book you should read! It's the teen manuscript I had to read for my eighteen part job interview. Of course I googled it and found out it's being published in the spring. It was really good. I want to call it "charming," but that's not a word real people use. Anyway, it's called "How Opal Mehta Got Kissed, Got Wild, and Got a Life," which is a far less cool title than the book is. It's by Kaavya Viswanathan. Really good.

Posted by: Kathy at February 6, 2006 12:05 PM

Thank you! I'll keep my eye out for that book. I looked up the amazon description for it, and it looks cute. A nice change from the normal teen girl crap that's out there.

Posted by: Rebecca at February 8, 2006 03:23 PM