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December 01, 2005
my head is in a sparkly place, but everything goes slowly there
Oh my god I've never been this tired before in my entire life.
So last night my sensory issues were bothering me, which made trying to fall asleep nearly impossible. Lauren convinced me that I should get out of bed, calm down, and try to come back later. But I never did.
First I did some reading. Then I listened to my favorite podcast. Then I spent a ridiculous amount of time reading baby information at my favorite bulletin board. Then I remembered that I'm supposed to be participating in an online Secret Santa for that bulletin board and set out to work on one part of the project (which I cannot discuss here, as I know some of the women from that board visit my site occasionally).
And the next thing I knew, it was 4:30 am. I had to get up at 8:30 today for Hebrew, so that would have left me with 4 hours of sleep. And, I rationalized, sometimes no sleep is better than just a few hours of sleep. Plus, I've been having trouble getting motivated to go to class lately, and I didn't want to accidentally or "accidentally" sleep through it. So I just... stayed up. I worked on this present for quite awhile, interspersed with more reading and paranoid email checking. And then suddenly, it was 9 am and I was running late to get ready for class.
Anyway, I've certainly gone without sleep before, but I guess that was back in the Olden Days when I had the body of a college student. I'm an old fogey now, you know. Apparently "no sleep is better than just a little sleep" no longer holds true.
I feel like I'm walking through jello and I feel like my head is stuffed with marshmallow goo. I debated taking a nap, but I know I'll just end up not sleeping again tonight if I do that, and that would be Bad. So after scouring our fridge for caffiene, something that usually doesn't affect me but that I normally avoid anyway, I ended up buying a Mountain Dew from the vending machine. Yuck.
It's not helping yet, either. I still feel all jello-y and marshmallow-goo-ey.
And I think my completely forgetting I was in the middle of writing a journal entry to stare off into space is a good indication that this entry is complete.
Posted to Miscellaneous at December 1, 2005 02:47 PM